Hold my hand..

Out of the tree of life..i just picked me a plum..you came along and everything is starting to hum..you see i believe the best is yet to come..

The loud,buzzing din of public transport
The music i strain to hear
A blinking light overhead of an abbreviation i cant make sense of..
Theres a vacuum inside me..i feel my heart fall deeper and deeper within itself..felt as if i was sinking while i lay still..

He took me there..
Where the sun kisses the ocean and the ocean meets the land..
One pant leg upto my knee..the other lags at my ankle..
too trivial i decide..and too tired to pull it back up again
weighing down with a part of the salty ocean and flopping and slapping against my feet..
I look to the horizon and try to lose myself among the waves and the overwhelming calm..
The calm i'm seldom surrounded by..
I wait to be inspired..by all this..so i may write once more..its been too long..
I close my eyes..the breeze ruffles my hair the waves lick my feet gently and i'm almost there..
there where i want to be..almost..
"what are you thinking about?"..your voice rudely interrupts..
"stop going there i dont want to walk in the water.."
"Arghhh..my pants!damn it!"..
I take a deep breath and bite down the coming wave of anger..
Calm down..calm down..
just in that moment i realised how wrong our perceived 'right' is together..
Just in this moment when i see that blinking meaningless light go on relentlessly..
It hits me again in a new perspective
I wonder how long i'll pay this price..
hark now hear!destiny is calling me..

Say it isn't so..

I want to cry but the tears adamantly refuse to appear..
I want to talk to you but you refuse to listen..
She wants to hear me out but i refuse to speak..
I've lost it..
That spark of spontaneity..
That burst of electricity..
The feeling's gone..
there's nothing left to life me up..
back into the world i knew..

you doused my fire..
with your damp, foul breath..
constantly cursing..constantly breathing
constantly snubbing and rubbing me out..
Its gone now..
you want to work it out
before we completely burn out..
i'm already ashes my dear....